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A: I don't want to go on father. 

B: You don't have to. 

A: Yea, but I don't want it to end either. 

B: It doesn't have to. 

A: Can I have both? 

B: No. 

A: Why not? 

B: Because you don't really want it to end, you just want an end to life as you have known it: suffering. 

A: How do I end that? 

B: Stop being so concerned about you don't have and what is going to happen. 

A: But if I live like that, I'll fall into nothingness. 

B: See, there you go again. How do you know that will happen? 

A: Because I've done that before and it creates more suffering. 

B: Liar. 

A: What? How the hell am I lying? 

B: You haven't done it before and it led to suffering. What you have done is to ignore things put before you so could chase pleasure...and you did that because you were afraid of what right action would cost you. 

A: Huh? 

B: The wind blew you north, and you headed south fearing winter's grip. 

A: Oh. 

B: Don't worry. Simply stop now. Be where you are. Do what is put before you, both within in your heart and outwardly in your life. 

A: I'm scared. 

B: I know. 

A: What do I do? 

B: I just told you. 

A: But I said I am scared. 

B: so? 

A: SO?! Are you kidding me? You don't care that I am scared? 

B: I care, but it doesn't change anything. 

A: I don't follow. 

B: I can soften your fears and forever keep you in bondage to it, or I can let you walk painfully through them so that you find you are made of sterner stuff than you thought. Personally, I don't feel like crippling you. 

A: Yea. I don't much want to be crippled. 

B: See. Was that so hard? 

A: I guess not, but what do I do now? 

B: Take action upon the mandates of your conscience. Walk, right this moment, painfully into your future. 

A: ok, but wow, that sucks. 

B: You'll be surprised. You know all that bit about people always wanting to "really live"; well, you only find it by pushing through fear to live in action and in the moment. You are about to live. I love you. Good luck. 

A: Thank you. I love you too. Amen. 

B: Amen.